I'm LAAAAAAAAAAME....

But in my defense, I have another blog. >.> I'm really behind, though. I'll try to be consistent with both from now on. I really will. And in the meantime...

itwasabeautifullie.wordpress.com

Well...

So... my day in a nutshell. My dear friend Ryan came to visit me on yesterday afternoon and spent the night. We stayed up way too late, of course, and got up around eleven this morning. Michael had texted me around ten, "wake uuuuuuuuuup!" So, after lunch at Fazoli's, Ryan and I headed to Java's, where Michael would meet us. We just chilled for a while, then Michael texts me and tells me he's bringing Eliott. WONDERFUL. Spending time with the guy I like who I just found out likes my skinny, hawt best friend. Great.

So they show up and we all hang around Java's for a bit, then head down State Street, checking out the antique shops and just hanging out. I end up spending most of my time talking with Eliott while Ryan and Michael laugh and talk a few paces behind us. After a fantastic afternoon, Ryan finally had to leave, at which point I was KIDNAPPED by the dastardly FIENDS that are my friends (Michael and Eliott) and we hung out.

Eliott's place first, where we just sorta sat around and talked and chilled; then, we got pizza and headed to Michael's, where we watched, like, 50+ YouTube videos and just hung out, talking music, did our usual. Finally, Michael brought me home, whereupon we had some serious brother/sister bonding time (even though we're not biologically related). He is of the firm belief that we need to go to the courthouse and legally become brother and sister. He let me totally unload on him and vent (like the awesome non-biological brother that he is), and I ended up breaking down in tears on him, which is a huge deal for me. I do not cry in front of people. I just trust him, and he left me feeling both considerably better about life in general and just sort of happy.

So, I cleaned the living room where Ryan and I had slept, did some dishes, and suddenly was like "I NEED TO BAKE." Whereupon I decided I wanted to make cookies, and forthwith discovered a SHOCKING lack of flour in the house! Well, I had a box of cake flour, so I decided I would make a cake.

Guess what? NO SUGAR, DAMMIT. I grumbled some choice words, then watched the end of Despicable Me, ate some peppermint patties, and got on Facebook.

I really wanted to bake, though. :\

Great...

Let's hear it for finding out that - as per fucking usual - the guy you like has a thing for your best friend. Just add insult to an injury-full day. Thanks a lot.

Yes, I realize she is ridiculously hot. But interestingly enough, she is also sort of a bitch and very difficult to be in a relationship with.

I am SO SICK of being "The Best Friend." Does it never occur to anyone that "The Best Friend" would like to have a real relationship of her own? Let's look at this:

Guy #1, first love of my life, only boy I ever loved - getting married soon.

Guy #2, my dearest friend but also one of the few guys I could see myself with - stubbornly oblivious.

Guy #3, the first boy to ever ask me out - I wasn't allowed to date; we now live a state away from each other and he's dating some hot, supermodel chick.

Guy #4, the next boy I trusted my heart with - he's a jackass and he shattered my heart. That is all.

Guy #5, first guy who ever showed serious interest in me - I didn't know him very well so I turned him down. Now that I know we're perfect for each other, he's taken.

Guy #6, the first guy in a long time who I've been like "okay, we could be good together" - he likes my best friend.


With a track record like that, is it any wonder I'm single? And let's not forget the creepers, assholes, 15-year-olds, and gays who have passed through my life.

Sucks that lesbianism isn't an option, because, goddammit, it would make my life a whole hell of a lot easier.

FAAAAAIL

I am so full of fail!!! It's okay, though. My New Year's resolution was to be faithful to ALLLL my blogs.

.... It's just that it's my bedtime right now. Past, really. GOODNIGHT, INTERWEBZ! (:

okay, so i suck.

this is not exactly news. i AM sorry, though, and i DO feel bad. i just am not very good with this whole blogging thing! i'll have to work on that... >_>

for my followers who want to read something that i DO write in a bit more consistently, here. have a link. ;) http://itwasabeautifullie.wordpress.com/ and yes, it's been nearly two months since i've written in that one, but still. it's more updated than this one... oh, lord. i really need to work on this.

i just don't know.

okay, because it hasn't been three decades since i wrote or anything.

this is monumental though. i may finally be coming clean to the boy i love. i just don't know...

current events and slander...

currently
* listening to: eyesore - janus (new favorite song)
* reading: the rivers of zaada
* playing: with mortals' emotions
* eating: trident layers

i'm also currently steaming over some recent slander. i don't understand why people can't stop and think before they open their idiotic mouths. my best friends' dad recently told his son (also my friend) that he needed to - quote - "be careful" around me because i "[have a habit of falling in love with guys who don't like me.]" how the fuck would he know? he doesn't know me at all - CLEARLY. *mutters* asshole. it's been a long time since i've been this mad about something, but it's a culmination of stupid things said by stupid people, so i'm proposing a simple thing:

before you say something, ask yourself:

1. could this hurt the person it's about?
2. could it lower someone's opinion of them?
3. does it need to be said?

or, the simplified, easier version for dummies:

1. is it true?
2. is it kind?
3. is it necessary?

ask yourself that and we'll be saving a lot of people a lot of pain and frustration. that's all for now. given that i'm so mad i can't see straight, typing is rather difficult.